all i need is YOU*

here we are ; at the crossroads once again.

2006-03-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

hello i'm back! to really thank all the people who came down to watch my debate.
i know alot of you ain't really interested but still came down to see me. i'm so touched kay. (:

esp peh jiayu who skipped school to come, and leila rita tan who cancelled her tuition classes to come.
and my 4e2 classmates esp the girls! xiongwei, kangjie and clique. not forgetting jicai and derrick. also all the sec 2s who came.
oh and TAY SUYIN! xD

and to glenn and hamzah. thanks so much for all your help all these while. (: you guys are the best debaters around kay!

and dearest marv, who stayed behind so late just to watch me. love ya.

we lost the debate but don't worry i'm alright. (: tried my best.
thanks so much! love ya all.

i won't be blogging again, at least not in the near future. no particular reason.
till then, huggs.

i guess that this is where've come to ;

2006-03-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

hello all (:
i won't be blogging anymore.
thank you for visiting it for the past two years.

love ya all.

cause you know i'd walk a thousand miles ; if i could just see you tonight.

2006-03-08T19:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENHUI, HENGWAN AND JESSAMINE! (:

sports day was quite fun. i love my class girls and mr spencer ng! intergritas rocks. champion house kay. hahahaha.
went for lunch with eleven plus girls and shihui after that and than for debate. love ya girls! was super tired ytd. (:

went to fareast with cheryl for the class tshirt stuff. finally everything's done! thanks girl. love ya.
debate just ended. and oh mrs gibson wants to meet my mum tmr. haha. i wonder what's wrong. i've been a good girl okay.

HELLO SITI HAMIDAH! i hope you're alright kay. anything call me. (: love you to pieces.

-
jesus you're all i need.
my life belongs to you ; you gave your life for me.
hold me in ur arms, never let me go ; i wanna spend eternity with you.
i will sing for you always cause in your presence lord is where i wanna stay, always.

Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil, for you're with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4
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baby malcom!

=D

marvvvvvv(: love you too.

what a day.

2006-03-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

it's like twelve am and i'm munching on sushis because i haven't ate dinner. thanks mum! (:

woke up late for school today. heh. it was alright. quite fun. i love math lessons. saranraj s/o rajinran, you owe me one!

went for tuition with leila after that. (:
then met hongsheng and rayl to mediacorp for campus superstar.
it was quite fun watching all those people scream like mad and the superstars la. yiyuan, adriano and yuyang are like super good looking can. adriano is so cute! xD
anyway, yiyuan was out and he cried. so sad.
waited for adraino to come out. i was walking side by side with him!!!! *hyperventilates again*

haiya i'm tired to blog. thanks rayl for the tixs!
pictures!

baby malcom!

rayl and me.

yuyang and me.

FINALLY ADRIANO AND ME!

sports' day is tmr i have no idea how i'm gonna get up. hahaha.
goodnight all. love.

Like a fairytale.

2006-03-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

and oh i almost forgot. I SPOKE TO ADRIANO ( yes that campus superstar one ) OVER THE PHONE THAT DAY. and he said HI GORGEOUS. *hyperventilates* xD

-
so much has happened since i last blogged even though it's just yesterday. i don't know how to put everything in words. somehow i feel thankful for the people around me.

sent the small boy aloysious home and then went for dinner after cellgroup with leila and jeff.
i know you two meant well. i know you guys love me. i know, i all know. just wanna say thank you for everything.
leila. you didn't have to say sorry. i'm sorry for making you worried and disappointed. please don't be worried. i'll do fine and i'll tell you everything kay? thank you. love.

service was good. about evangelism and reaching out to the lost. Praise God for the so many healing testimonies and also for the people who were saved. i really pray and hope for the friendship connection week to go well. (: The drama was really touching.
so much thoughts just went through my mind during worship. i teared, prayed.
lord, guide me. have faith, i'll never leave you.

PEH JIAYU. thanks for the honey water. she made them early in the morning cuz she knew i was having a bad throat. i'm so touched. don't worry about me kay! you need more help than me. xD thanks girl. love you to pieces.

szefong! i miss you babe. please call me! haha.

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and finally,
marv.
you always make me feel like everything's alright and under control. i know i would never regret having you in my life. thank you for being so understanding and for everything.
love ya.

it's all about you, and the world you promised.

2006-03-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

just came back from mr malvin's place. (: glenn and hamzah came down too. baby malcom is just so cute, unlike his daddy. haha. we got all our stuff set up faster this time so we won't be so stressed up.
i'll be the 2nd speaker on friday!

went for suzanne's dad's wake ytd with jeremy, houjun, mich, rebecca, yengjie and sinteck. i love them all so much! yeah anyway it was really sad. i couldn't help but tear a little when i saw that poor girl crying so hard.
be strong ya? we all miss you in school. (:

going for cellgroup soon. i miss them all.

HELLO TAN HANSHENG! are you angry? so sorry i've been neglecting you. heh. before you keep saying i'm a meanie, will call you soon! (:

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anna's blog is so inspiring.

a moment.

in life, there is always a moment.

when you're doing something that isn't right, there's always a moment where your conscience or your mind or just something tells you that you gotta stop and backtrack. when you're on a roll, there's a moment where you stop to think to yourself is anything is for real. when you're afraid or in despair, there's always that one moment when you feel that everything you worked for could be snatched away with the snap of two very big fingers.

sometimes, we ignore that moment and most of that sometimes we end up making a mistake or not doing something we should have.

well, when that moment comes, dun ignore it.

seriously.

don't.

- alright i've to go. love ya all.

i don't care what people will say, cuz i'm running after you.

2006-03-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

it's nine plus and i'm already feeling sleepy. i don't feel like studying now. probably wake up tmr to study.
got news that suzanne's dad passed away this morning. my heart just goes out to her. i really hope she's feeling alright now. i thought about my aunt and yeah memories came back. i never wanna imagine losing people so dear to me. i love you all so much. (:

went for dinner with jiayu, wenhui, cheryl, mich and kansie. jiayu was mad, as usual and it was really funny. thank God for the wonderful grp of them!

i feel unsatisfied with myself and with life at times. i don't know exactly how i'm suppose to change. i know i can't possibly please every single one but i hate it even when it's just one person who doesn't seem to be happy with me.
i'll try to shut up, listen and compromise and it isn't always that easy.

i feel like i'm missing something in my life, yet i don't know what that thing is.
lord, speak to me.
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and i saw those dreams become reality.

silly marv, thank you for being there(: love.

2006-03-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

talked to szefong, hansheng and yengjie last night. because some people say i've been IGNORING and NEGLECTING them! (: i'm a busy young girl you know. heh.
szefong just had a tough fight! and only we two know what that tough fight is about. xD hahaha. love ya all!

i slept soooo much and i'm still feeling sleepy.
i love math lessons cause i'm sitting beside saranraj s/o rajinran. i'm usually laughing the entire lesson. we talked alot today and yup. even though you are the biggest moron ever, i still love ya, bestfriend!

went to compass to get some sushi before going home with cheryl. i've been eating so much sushi lately. (:
i've got chemistry test to mug for soon. nights all love.
-

hey marv, you're sucha a sweetheart. thank you(:

2006-02-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

"The Lord does not look at the things man look at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7

A Man Named Dave.

2006-02-28T18:11:00.000+08:00

Now, as i continue to shiver in the darkness of the garage, I know the end is near. I cry for not having the courage or the strength to fight back. I'm too tired. The eight years of constant torture have sucked my life force out of me. I clasp my hands together and pray that when The Mother kills me, she will have mercy to kill me quickly.
I begin to feel light headed. The harder i pray, the more i feel myself drift off to sleep. My knees stop quivering. My fingers loosen from digging into my bony knuckles. Before i pass out, i say myself, 'God ... if You can hear me, can You somehow take me away? Please take me. Take me today.'
I used to be so strong. I just can't take it anymore.

-
i barely hit 20 pages on this book and it's already starting to make me cry.
" A story where love, kindness, patience and endurance triumph. "

i'm halfway reading angels and demons too. still have chronicles of narnia from school which i haven't started. i gonna spend one day at home just reading and listening to music (:

-
for the past two days i was busy catching up with my math work. thanks lifen, yengjie, cheryl, leila and saran for helping me so much.
i love 4e2!

thanks jiayu and leila for praying! i'm alright already. praise God!

oh i love reading anna's blog entries. they are so intellectual.
this is your life, are you who you wanna be?

i've so much to blog about but i'm feeling lazy. need some sleep right now.
loves all.
-

Open up my heart and you will find.
This fire burns so deep, it burns so bright for you.
Thank you lord.

now hush little baby don't you cry ; everything's gonna be alright.

2006-02-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

argh. i have had diarrhoea since ytd morning. i can't even eat a proper meal because every single time i finish my food i get tummyache. haha.

anyway went to help my dad at work today with my bro. then went to hospital to visit my grandma. (:
gonna have tuition soon.

i miss my cellgrp members so much. (: i heard service was great today. can't wait for next week.

-
i'll be waiting.

this fire burns so deep, it burns so bright for you.

2006-02-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

First thing, i lost my ic the other day and i was totally devastated and worried. but some kind soul sent it back to my home. can you believe it? aww. praise the lord! i wasn't home so didn't have a chance to thank the person. sosososo thank you to the person who brought it for me(:

thanks for the enthusiasm going on on my tagboard. heh. love ya all(:

evenlyn
-hey. thanks. i'm kinda lazy. heh. hope you're reading this. you can get the template at www.blogskins.com under skins of the day. (:

siti ~~the utterly gorgeous~~
-WHATEVER. SO LAME. xD hahaha.

lifen
-i sure will lifen darling(: haha.

marv
-hey(: i did? maybe i accidentally pressed it. didn't really get to speak you after my debate. you were so farrrr in front. anyways. congrats best speaker(:

wenhui the HOT BABE
-really sweetie? hahaha. i'll be waiting. (:

yj
-hello! yupyup. loves. and cheer up ya? (:

-

i had a great sleep last night. woke up at 11.30am this morning. heh. went for prayer mtg with cheryl kinda late. the cab driver took half an hour to drive us cuz he had no idea where chiltern drive was. -.-

anyway, prayer meeting was really good. i've been so busy, tired and drained out for the entire week. i haven't been doing quiet time and spending time with God, yet he never left me. Thank you for always being there for me. we prayed for revival in school and God's presence was really strong. Leila prayed for us and i just felt those words hit me really strongly. thank you(:
i believe i can and i wanna take myself to a level of higher maturity in Christ. to be a stronger child of God.
Thank you for all you've done, my dearest lord jesus.

went with cheryl to fareast to settle admin stuff for our class tee. hope 4e2 likes it(: thanks cheryl. love ya even though you are insane. hahaha.

went to visit my grandma in hospital. she just had an operation on wednesday. she's much better. yay. i love it when she smiles. thanks to all who prayed for her!
gonna miss service tmr cuz i have to help my dad at work. sekhong i miss you! (:

it's been a great day. can't wait to see my beloved cellgrp members next week.
argh. tummyache for the entire day. everything i ate came out. grr.
nights all love.

-
AND HELLO TAN HANSHENG! he loves seeing his name in my blog so,

HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG HANSHENG.
whhhhhheeeeeeeeeeee. xD

i'm drained.

2006-02-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

we won the debate. yay. yay-ing because this round of debate is FINALLY over. i feel so drained out. it's just been sucha busy week. i haven exactly got anytime for myself.
i didn't do well today, or at least i think. sigh.

to my dearest debate team, mr moronic malvin lim, hamzah and glenn:
you guys have been awesome. thanks so much for everything. love you guys.
thanks xiongwei and kangjie for coming(:
thanks to cheryl, yengjie, houjun, michelle, szefong, yingtong, leongcheng and siti for asking and wishing me luck for the debate.
met jiayu, wenhui and kansie at amk for dinner and we just walked around. jiayu was super insane and funny. so sorry i was too tired to join in the nonsense. haha.
love ya all(:

sorry sekhong(: we were suppose to have fun today. i promise soon k.

i've got so much thoughts in my mind and i just can't seem to put them into words.
somebody bring me to the beach. i just wanna lie down, watch the stars and let my thoughts wander far far away.

i'm REALLY tired. physically and mentally. all i need is a good nice cosy sleep.
nights all.
-

2006-02-24T14:52:00.000+08:00

It's been a busy week(: but managed to go out with xiongwei for dinner ytd evening. went to tm. kangjie and weiwen came along too. we talked alot about problems, school and stuff. yeah. it was fun.

got back chinese and history test results today. it was alright. at least i didn't fail. (:
gonna complete my debate stuff. first time as an lst opposition speaker. kinda nervous. i'll try my best!
gotta go. till then. loves.
-

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ooh

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to..

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star 
-

nice song(:

2006-02-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

i love this song. it just speaks into my heart.

One last - Taufik Batisah
I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

2006-02-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

aivernt@hotmail.com says:
hai hao lah i think quite cute leh me
nicolette// And in your eyes, I see the missing pieces i've been searching for. says:
..........
hahaha he so funny. (:
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these few days have been really busy and tiring.
thank god for having wonderful friends like yengjie(: he has been helping me with my work and stuff. he asked me a million times since monday whether i was alright. thanks so so so so much.
szefong/jiayu for the encouragement.
cheryl for listening to me complain and talk.
loves.

Romans 5:3 - 5 not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverence; perseverance character; and character, hope. and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.

i think i've found my way home.

2006-02-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

Fort Minor - Believe me.

Chorus
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me

I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playin 'em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
Just like that
Now you've gotta face the pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hand
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
And whatever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

:Chorus:

Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But it's not gonna work
Cause it's really much worse than I thought
I wished you were something you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

Uh
You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
And hear my voice in your head when no one else is around
So what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
And whatever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me

:Chorus:

Instrumental Break

:Chorus:

I'll do what i have to do
You're on your own now believe me

Whatever happend to you?
You're on your own now believe me

What do I have to say?
You're on your own now believe me

It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day.

2006-02-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

i slept so much today. now i'm so wide awake. and i'm bored.

yengjie! (: he called and sms me so many times to ask whether i was fine.
i am really really really alright.
thanks so much bro!
sinteck, leila, sekhong, jiayu, cheryl too(:

i failed my amaths test.
when you see me online, PLS TELL ME TO STOP CHATTING AND GO STUDY.
i gonna bathe, drink some hot milo and study. wwhheee. sounds nice.

-
walk me home, i don't wanna go all the way alone
baby would you walk with me home
baby would you take my hand
come with me now to a special land
baby would you walk with me home

3 A.M., you're on my mind once again
i must have been dreamin
thought i felt your heartbeat just then
and i wondered how it would be
if i was your lady and you were my friend
i would put my heart in your hands
and it would never end

CHORUS
baby would you walk me home? (walk me home)
i don't wanna go all the way alone (all alone)
baby would you walk with me home?
baby would you take my hand? (take my hand)
come with me now to a special land (ohh)
baby would you walk with me home?

ohh ohhhoh (2x)
la la la la la la

i hold your picture
next to my heart all the time
ohh yeah baby

you're my dream come true
so glad you're mine
and i wonder how it would be
if i was your lady and you were my friend
i would put my heart in your hands
and it would never end

CHORUS

everyday and night i wanna hold you(hold you)
understand i am going to love you
in my own special way (in my own special way)

(CHORUS x2)

ohh
won't you walk with me home?

2006-02-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

i'm sick today! losing my voice and i have fever.
cheryl, yengjie and sinteck called from school. aww so touched.
thanks so much. don't worry cuz i'm fine yup. i miss you guys too!

it's so boring at home. been doing research for debate since i woke up.
-

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

2006-02-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

Run with the gospel, we'll carry revival. The Love of Christ will set us free.

Service was great today! i missed cheryl. Pastor talked about the 10 commandments to good relationships. so meaningful. (: I'M GORGEOUS. hahaha.

i can't wait for all the plans i've made this week. besides debate. hahaha. i trust God to bless me with a great week. sekhong! we gonna have fun on friday. hoho. be strong girl(:

and HANSHENG! thanks for ytd(: loves.

i'm suppose to go over to phy's place at 4 plus and it's six now. heh. gotta go bathe and prepare.
love ya all. =D
-

Do what you do, what you say, what you feel
Do what you do, let your hands that can heal
Do what you do what you say what you feel
Do what you do, let your hands that can heal

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..

'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Come and lay your hands on me.

thank god.

2006-02-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

woke up early for debate in the morning. lydia was feeling kinda bad i think(: sigh. pray that she will be alright soon. good luck to marvin and team for ur debate(: we will be there to support you guys.

lunch and cellgrp was great today!(: went for lunch with jiayu, joshua, cheryl, wenhui and JEFFREY THE IDIOTIC WONG. it was quite fun la. we talked alot of nonsense. hahaha.

quite few pple came but still it was good. we learnt about the 7 elements of failure. wenhui and me prayed for each other after the preaching. (: than played the guitar and stuff. so fun(:
went to j8 with jiayu and wenhui after that. I LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH!

met henry after that to pass him his present. haha.
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gonna play vball with my bro alr. NIGHTS ALL LOVE(:

LALALA. THANK GOD(:

2006-02-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

first time i have so many people tagging my tagboard. so here are the replies(:

LIFEN : hello ong lifen! who's the one sleeping in class. whole day also sleep. you piggggggg xD

JIA... : i don't know who you are but i'm not a moron! haha.

WEIAN : yah. thanks dear! (:

LEILA : hahahaha. miss you too(: can't wait for cl bs!

NANA : yupp! i must do as well as you. thanks! you're so cute! =D

SITI THE PRETTY GIRL : thank you for your nice tag but siti hamidah,
number ONE, you are not a pretty girl. number TWO, i'm don't sleep in class. number THREE, i'm not a p.i.g. xD

CHERYL : hihihihi xD so surprised you visit my blog! hohoho. thanks ya girl(: you did a great job too. i love you girls.

JIAYU THE BABE -.- : hahaha. wah why you tell everyone. hahaha. I LOVE YOU! huggs(:
-

SZEFONG(:
hello girl. don't feel sian diao, worried, sad or anything alright. lean on God's strength(leila taught me=D) and trust in HIM. trust that he will make everything alright for you. keep praying. and don't think so much about unneccesary stuff okay(: i'll be always always be around. i promise i'll make time for you after my debate competition ends okay. loves.

-
i wanna blog but i'm just extremely tired but i'm happy. (:

the group of you who really care and love me.
WHAT MORE CAN I SAY?
THANK YOU ALL SO SO SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU GUYS. <3

AND MY GOD WHOM I TRUST WITH ALL MY HEART.
I'M SO THANKFUL.

more than what i could ask for.

thank you lord.

2006-02-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

FIRST I WOULD LIKE TO DECLARE THAT MR MALVIN LIM IS AN ABSOLUTE MORON BECAUSE HE SAID I WAS A P-I-G. which stands for PERPETUALLY IDIOTIC GIRL. hahaha.

and to peh jiayu on my tagboard. hahaha. i didn't mention cause i forgot(: i called jiayu and we spent half the conversation talking about porn. hahaha. and i'm NOT senile. i'm just an extremely busy and gorgeous young woman.

and that jiayu rocks and zining stones part.
IS NOT FUNNY. xD heh.

BUT I STILL LOVE YA. HUGS.

-
i'm so tired(: talked about school with my bro till super late. i suddenly feel motivated to work hard. i wanna go into a good jc(: oh, i just dropped to combined sciences today. i think i can cope better too. i will study hard.

thanks sujun, huijuan, hazel, eunice for the vday gifts!

i've so much to blog but i'm soooo tired(:
I LOVE SCHOOL, I LOVE MY CLASS 4E2, I LOVE MY DEBATE TEAM, I LOVE MY FAMILY, I LOVE MY FRIENDS, I LOVE GOD.
I LOVE MY LIFE(:

the rose rayl gave is still looking so beautiful after a day(: i love it so much.

=D

sis(:

-
yay yay. it's going far far far away already.

I CAN DO ALL THINGS IN CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME
(: PHIL 4:13
I KNOW YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO GUIDE ME. I TRUST YOU LORD AND I WANNA STAY WITH YOU FOREVER.
the little sercet between you and me. thank you(:

2006-02-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

One night I dreamt a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You left me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

I was no one when i first met you
I had nothing of worth in my life
But then i found you and it all became clear
You're the one that i've been searching for

From the start i couldnt figure it out
Why someone like you would die for me
But i know that your love for me is so great
And that is why im giving you my life

I am yours every part of me
Jesus you're the reason i live
Take my life lord and use me as you will
Jesus you're the reason i live

I can't believe that you're with me til forever
I'll never leave you and you'll never leave me
It's what i long for your presence here in my life
Cos you're the air i breathe my reason why

lalala(:

2006-02-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

i slept at 9pm last night and woke up at 10am this morning(:
haven't had such a good sleep for a long time.

i got chocolates from eeyin, cheryl and eileen. thanks! (:
and another rose from dearest rayl chan yuentuck. (: he gives me a rose every year!
thanks bestfriend.

valentines is so fun(: can't wait for the next one.

lessons was okay today except for maths. saranraj! stop reading those stuff. can't stand those guys. sorry yengjie. bu shi ku yi de xD hahaha.
i love my class!
-

someday my prince will come. acts 1:11
one day we'll walk by the beach holding hands.

AH STUDY HARD.

2006-02-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

i seriously need to study hard. i just failed chemistry by THREE marks today. more than half the class failed but that's because most of them didn't study i think.
i STUDIED and i still failed.

NO MORE THAN ONE HOUR OF COMPUTER FROM TMR ONWARDS(:

LESS TALKING OVER THE PHONE AND LESS SLEEPING DURING LESSONS.

STUDY
STUDY
STUDY.

don't take a break from God ; take a break with God(:

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

2006-02-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

LOVE IS IN THE AIR(:
happy valentines day!
today was soso fun. one of the best valentine day ever. the entire day, everybody was so busy exchanging presents and cards.

and i realised just how sweet some of our class guys are(:
we walked into class and saw roses on each and everyone of the girls' tables.
from our dearest YENGJIE AND SINTECK! they even wrote notes for all of us. (: awww.
thanks so much! both of you have been such great friends. yengjie's the sweetest bro ever!
sinteck. hohoho. even though the entire class can't stand your awful singing, we still love you! hahaha. we've been friends for four years alr! thanks for everything!

SARAN, ZUL, JAN AND SHAFIQ ordered pizza for us(: aww. thanks!

HERMAN LOH WENG JUN AND GAN JIASHENG. you two never fail to surprise and make me smile. thanks for the glass-made rose and lovely drawing. hahaha(: LOVE YA BOTH!

i have so many people to thank!

weian and corina gave me a handphone strap with my name on it. both of them are SOSO CUTE la!!! lovey dovey.
michelle for the nice soft rose!
yingtong for the friendship keychain. now we have two each! (:
jeremy for the bottled saga seeds. didn't expect it but i really like it (:
mrs tang, cheryl, siti hamidah, houjun, rachel, rebecca, lileen, eileen, suyin, christopher, zhenhui, sujun, jinxian, janice, jicai, peiqi, wendy and stephanie. i hope i didn't miss out anyone. thanks for the chocolates, sweets, notes, lolipops and everything! (:

and my DEAREST ~~MORONIC~~
( he calls me brainless, for your information )DEBATE TEACHER, MR MALVIN LIM! he brought us to swensens to have icecream(: love ya!
-
hohoho. was chatting to aivern online! so funny.

nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
u can give me present also
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
i don mind
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
haha
Stupid Flower Service says:
haha
Stupid Flower Service says:
if i single den u on my shortlist ok?
Stupid Flower Service says:
LOL
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
sian diao
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
wait u single dunno when already lo haha
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
Stupid Flower Service says:
quite true im so desirable
Stupid Flower Service says:
very unlikely bah
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
eeeyer
nicolette// happy valentines! lalala. says:
bth u
Stupid Flower Service says:
lol!
Stupid Flower Service says:
sometimes i bth myself also
Stupid Flower Service says:
damn high quality bf material man

-.- his skin so thick. go burn also can last ten mintues.

I LOVE VDAY! (: NIGHTS ALL LOVE.

AIVERN SAY I LOOK PRETTY HERE(:

lalala. thank god(:

2006-02-13T18:02:00.000+08:00

lai wenhui say my font very small so i'll ENLARGE it.
i'm feeling much better(: school was alright. kinda tired cuz i slept really late last night.

went with yingtong to get vday pressies after school. haven gone out together for a looong time(: so we talked about stuff and ya. thanks girl(: love ya. i understand how you feel. be strong k.

"Lalala. Nicolette Ng Zining didnt turn up because she slept late. She slept late because of ahem-ahem. =) Such a moron. =)"

SITI HAMIDAH BTE ABDUL whatever... i saw that. i'm not a moron, you moron! hahaha.
love ya to pieces(: *hugs*

i spent an hour plus preparing gifts and notes for valentines day. i'm so broke(: hope they will all like it!
so sorry to N293/N330! everything was quite last min so i didn't really get proper pressies/notes for you guys.

-
we'll sit by the beach till sunlight.
thank god for all the wonderful people around me.
JESUS; DON'T EVER LEAVE ME BECAUSE I NEED YOU SO SO MUCH.

2006-02-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

sleepness nights like this make me can't stop thinking. i am a happy girl, in every area of my life except for relationships. i need a break from all these.

i got myself into this and now i need to get out.
don't ask whether i'm alright cuz all i need is time.

i wanna leave all the tears and memories behind.

take me away lord.
into your presence.
just you and me.
-making a perfect we.
-

don't let anyone look down on you because you're young, but set an example for believers in speech, in life, in faith and purity.
1 timothy 4:12

oh i saw this on sinteck's msn nick(:
Looks may capture the eyes, but it's the personality that captures the heart.
so true ain't it?

2006-02-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

you know who's the best person in the world, shes ZINING, THANK YOU.

hey xiongwei. i'm really touched(: i almost teared reading that. thank you too. best friends forever.
don't think so much already. cheer up. loves.

everytime i feel discouraged about life and feel like giving up, it's friends and family around me who keep me going strong. and my only saviour lord jesus christ. let your love touch everyone around me.
thank you.

you guys make my life complete.

2006-02-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world, all that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes, shining at me
When you smile I can feel,all my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations seduce me 'cause I,
I do, cherish you
For the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions, didn't know where I was going
'til that day, I found you
how you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart until my dying day
repeat chorus
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do, oh, I do
-
i love this song(:

so near yet so far. goodbye.

2006-02-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

service was great today! the message really struck me hard. pastor talked about reaching out and fellowshipping with the lost and unchurched.

thank God for the message! bcuz for the past weeks i've been trying to reach out to a group of schoolmates. it's like i couldn't get them to really stay. even people whom i thought could get them to stay were losing interest. i just got really discouraged and was losing faith alr.
but this four weeks i gonna do all i can to fellowship with them, bless them and meet their needs. (((: thanks leila and jiayu! (: for encouraging me.

so for the next few weeks no preaching of the gospel and just fellowship and bless the lost! i'm sure we can do it. cellgroup can multiply in august leila! (:

went for jiayu's baptism service just now. jiayu's mum was there. i was kinda touched cuz her mum rushed down just to see her get baptised. (: i hope my mum can get saved and do the same when i'm baptised. CONGRATS GIRL! love ya to pieces(:
-

marvin from riverside sec just msged me.
" hey you know i never congratulated you on your best speaker award, you were awesome. "
i'm so surprised and touched! you did a great job too(: can't wait to see you guys again. your msg made my day!

i'm so happy today(: because of the message pastor preached and marvin's sms.
hahaha. nights all love(:

2006-02-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

WENHUI AND HANSHENG SAY I LOOK PRETTY IN THIS PICTURE(: YAY.

2006-02-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

cellgroup was fun today! (: we ate yusheng. didn't expect leongcheng, kangjie and kemund to come. thanks for coming! and now leongcheng owes me a movie ticket!
i finally bought vday pressies. yay.

was talking to szefong during cell today. i miss her so much. we haven gone out for so super long.
thanks for all the advices and nagging. hahaha. don worry bout me cuz i'm fine(:
and be strong kay girl! i'll pray for you. trust God that everything will be fine and also you have me!

i completed getting started! yay. can't wait for the next bs. thanks leila! hoho.
worship was good and everything's coming back again! yay. thank you jesus. for always being there even when i left you.

i'm so thankful for all my friends and family(:
you guys make my life complete.
-

i have this urge to watch I NOT STUPID TOO again. anybody?(:

-
was reading through my msgs and there are some really sweet ones i like(:

i will walk with you side by side for only one condition. hide your wings everytime we walk together because the world might know you're my angel.

if you need me and there are a hundred steps between us, you can take the first step to get near me, and i'll take all the 99 steps to be there for you.

if i were a fairy, i would make all your dreams come true. but i'm just human so i promise to be there for always.

if every raindrop would be one smile, i wish that it rains heavily throughout for you so that there'll be no space for tears in your life.

if i was a tear in your eye, i would lie on your cheeks and die on your lips but if you were a tear in my eye, i would never cry cuz i don't wanna lose you.

heaven? some people search for it, few find it. but i don't need to cuz i have you.
and with you, it's heaven.

i may not hear your cries, see your pain, nor sense your fear but one thing for sure, i want to hear your laughters, see your smile and sense your joy. stay happy always.
-

will it just fade away like before?

lalalala.

2006-02-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

WE WON THE DEBATE! hoho. i know i'm repeating. but it's like we spent so much time preparing for it. still have a couple of weeks to slog.
we have 2 more preliminary rounds. one at deyi sec and another at my school. so if want please come and watch us. it will be on friday nights. (:

i'm feeling okay already. maybe it's just the lack of sleep. (: i missed homecoming concert cuz i was so tired i woke up at 9. haha.
lydia was telling me and siti about how their class is doing in studies and stuff. i realised how weak/noisy/playful/insane our class is. if only we were all quiet nice students who don't irritate teachers.
i must start managing my time well so i have enough time to study. rah(:

valentines day's coming and i haven't got pressies for people! we have two tests on that day and we'll probably be having debate trg. AND I HAVE NO DATE. *hints*
okay kidding. hahaha. =D

lord, you seem so far away ; please come back and touch me once again.

2006-02-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

we won the debate competition! yay. yay. yay. THANKS MR MALVIN, HAMZAH, LYDIA, HAMIDAH, CHRISTOPHER AND GLENDA! (: i was the best speaker! yay. i'm so happy. thanks jiayu and lydia who prayed for us! and also siti hamidah who came to support us. praise the lord!

from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control.
i don't know why. i'm losing control over my feelings. help me lord.

argh tired.

2006-02-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates. i've been extremely busy with debate preparation and tests. (:
sorry leila! i thought i updated that day with the photos but somehow it went missing.

went to cheryl hse to make cookies and mr malvin's hse for debate like quite long ago (:

we made them!

our cookies in teh oven.

leila and me!

BABY MALCOM!

I'M DRAINED. GOODNIGHTS ALL. (:
HELLO HANSHENG. <3

i need sleep.

2006-02-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

ahhh this is insane. i am just almost done with my debate stuff and i still have alot of homework and a test to study for tmr. AND IT'S ALREADY 12am.
HELP. LUCKILY HAMZAH IS HELPING ME.
blahblahblahblahblah.

hello(:hoho.

2006-02-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

talked to hs on the phone till super late last night. (:

school was okay today. everything was quite dry except for chinese. super funny. I LOVE MY CLASS! (:

delirious concert! it was good but i was distracted and i couldn't really feel God's presence. struggling and struggling and yet i still couldn't find it. i don't know what's wrong. i feel so drifted away. thanks szefong(:
leongcheng, ashley and ivan came! ashley and ivan got saved. yay praise the lord!

i'm tired and i have tuition soon. gonna take a nap. GOODNIGHTS LOVE.
-
onetwothreefourfivesixseveneightnineteneleventwelvethirteenfourteen
onetwo
<3

hohoho.

2006-02-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

I FEEL FAT! (:

p.e was super fun. hoho. i love my class girls. hahaha. (:
made cookies at cheryl's place today and it turned out good. yay! thanks girl! loves.

i'm tired. lazy to blog. nights all love.

be happy.

2006-02-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

i love my new blogskin so much! i keep re-visiting my blog every 5 mintues.

HELLO XIONGWEI! CHEER UP! DON WORRY SO MUCH K. I'M SURE THINGS WILL BE FINE. YOU HAVE ME(: hohoho.

i can't wait for saturday and sunday! i miss all of them and delirious? is coming!
making cookies with cheryl and having tuition with leila tmr. yay.

-

i've been thinking again. reading the past chat logs and looking at pictures just brings back so much memories. happy ones which are no longer there.
i wanna leave everything behind and be happy.
but it's just so tough.

i'm not asking for much ; because i just want to be really happy.
MAKE ME SMILE.

hoho new skin.

2006-02-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

yay! finally managed to complete this new skin.(: everything was kinda messed up at first and the navigations didn't show.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFFERY WONG! =D

hoho. some pictures taken during new year(:

cousins! ted, my bro, me and gloria.

gloria, nicolette and eunice.

eunice and me.

my lovely sis and me!

I LOVE JIAYU AND CHERYL. HOHO CUZ THEY CALLED ME.
nights all LOVE.

2006-02-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

first day of school was great. (: love ya all!

i'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about you, it's about you jesus.
i'm sorry lord for the thing i've made it and it's about you, all about you jesus.
i'll bring you more than a song. thank you jesus.

avos!

my favourite nephew.

hohoho.

liwen!

my mum and me. =D

some old pictures. (: memories.

fearless. happy cny!

2006-01-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

realised my entry was very messy so i decided to reblog. hoho.
EILEEN IS BIG FAT BULLY!

went to mr malvin's house for debate early in the morning and then watched fearless with justin. very nice show! quite touching. after that went to eileen's house with xiongwei, leongcheng, bingchao and kangjie to play cards. haha. very fun.

stayed there and talked alot with eileen about stuff. i miss so many things! haiyer. don think anymore. (:
eileen is HAPPY. hohoho. so sweet lor!

school's starting TMR! so fast. need to study already.

i wanna watch i not stupid too!

NIGHTS ALL LOVE.

2006-01-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

HIHIHI! im EILEEN.
that idiot is here in my kitchen looking for
FOOD. hahaha.

sdgj;eghGJHE;RHG;UdvnmRGFk;jwhedf;jds
gjahgdskgh;adfh;ASDHFG;shg;gadgASGDH
AS; JKHG;HTB

she's a BIG BAD BULLY !

happy cny! =D

2006-01-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY ALL! (:
hoho. i'm having a great time. i love new year! went to liyun's house to bai nian just now.
super funny la. PEH JIAYU IS INSANE! hahahaha.

lalalala. LOVE YA ALL. takecare!

spring cleaning.

2006-01-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

finally QUITE done with spring cleaning. (: feeling extremely tired right now. but i'm suppose to shou ye because it's new year eve. i'll try to keep myself awake. rah.
have to wake up early to go visiting tmr morning.

i'm running outta energy to even type. nights all love.
HAPPY CNY!

lalala. rollerblading.

2006-01-28T16:53:00.000+08:00

went to rollerblade with leila today. hoho. I TAUGHT HER OKAY!
derrick, jicai and ashley joined us after that then went to play bowling and arcade. hahaha.
thanks derrick! (:

I LOVE LEILA RITA TAN! =D she's going to uk soon. we'll miss you!

HAPPY CNY! =D

i wanna be on fire for you forever.

2006-01-28T02:59:00.000+08:00

hohoho. i'm still awake. was chatting to RAYL CHAN YUENTUCK online. so shuai la somebody. haha. he's going to malaysia soon. MISS ME. haha.

talking to yenguang about church and stuff.
actually i have no idea what to blog about.
GOODNIGHTS. love.

cheaper by the dozen 2(:

2006-01-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

cny concert was fun! i love the modern dance item. it was way HOT.

was suppose to go out with my class people but the movie they were watching was too early.
went back to anderson primary. hohoho. i got an angbao from mrs tan. love her! (:

met jiayu after that to watch cheaper by the dozen 2. it was a really nice show! very heartwarming. met sherlynn, breda, wenhui, leila, angeline, guifeng, kansie and wenhui's friend.
met saran and clique there! =D

my handphone bill went over 100 bucks this month. perfect. one more time and my dad prolly not gonna pay for it anymore. so please call me after 7pm. i have free incoming. (:

i'm drained out. i need a good sleep. going to eastcoast with the cell tmr! i miss blading.
NIGHTS ALL LOVE (:

((: lalala.

2006-01-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

the 9pm show on channel 8 show is so nice! all happy ending. yay.

chemistry test today was bad. hoho. i didn't study hard enough.

went for debate just now. mr malvin talked to me in the morning. thanks mr malvin. everything's fine now. yay! competition's next week. we won't screw it up anymore!

planned my 2006 goals! will start after new year. (: i'll try my very best to fulfil the whole long list of them!

p.e was super fun today. I LOVE MY CLASS GIRLS! TAY SUYIN IS INSANE. we were playing captain's ball. but we did alot of stupid stuff. ((((: hahaha.
I LOVE 4E2!

gonna visit mrs tan keng chin tmr! she's my primary one teacher. hahaha. i miss her so much. meeting the yck girls after that. (:

having an outing at eastcoast park this saturday with the cellgroup! meeting at 11am at eastcoast macs. (: please bring some food for picnic! =D

have homework not done. hohoho. gonna slp soon. meeting nicholas, cheryl, jeremy and yengjie early to go school tmr. haha.
NIGHTS ALL LOVE.

thank you(:

2006-01-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

went for service today(: so fun. hahaha. thanks ah JEFF AND JIAYU.
I LOVE THEM ALL! =D

maths lesson was really fun today. LOGCAKE rocks. hohoho.

i'm gorgeous. NIGHTS ALL LOVE. (:

-
THANK YOU FOR THE PROMISES YOU MADE
FOR THE GIFT OF LIFE YOU GAVE
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOUR PRAISE

THANK YOU FOR THE CHANCE TO LIVE AGAIN
FOR YOUR GRACE THAT NEVER ENDS
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOU PRAISE

HALLELU--JAH
HALLELU--JAH
HALLELU--JAH
MY BELOVED KING
TO YOU I SING

HALLELUJAH’S SONG

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
YOU’RE ALL THIS WORLD WILL NEVER BE
YOUR NAME REIGNS IN MY HEART
YOU’RE ALL THAT I DEPEND ON

yay. praise god!

2006-01-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

talked to jiayu and hansheng on the phone last night till really late so i was super restless in english lesson today. haha.
thanks peh jiayu! don't worry i'll come to you if i have any problems gorgeous. LOVE YA! (:

i got full marks for chemistry test! yay. praise god. thanks leila rita tan! (:

debate is suppose to have started half an hour ago but everybody's missing and our dear mr malvin lim is having lunch. so i'm stucked with christopher in the com lab. hoho. i just downloaded msn. (:

going for service ltr but only with my bro and leila! everybody's going on wed. haha. i'll miss them!
-
1 peter 5:7 - "give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares for you."
psalm 46:1 - "God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble."

jericho. 4e2!

2006-01-23T16:52:00.000+08:00

had class decoration compeitition today. it was soso fun (: THANKS 4E2! alot of them stayed back to help out. even jannatun, shafiq and razin! we sang new year songs, bombed 4e1 and did stupid things. had fun!

i love saranraj! he never fails to make my math lessons so fun and interesting. hahaha.

i love my class girls. houjun, siti, cheryl, yingtong, mich, suyin, becca, rach, sihui, stephanie and every single one of them! (:

I LOVE 4E2!

i love herman and jiasheng too! (((: miss hanging out with them.

gonna go nap and go for tuition. NIGHTS ALL LOVE.
-

you walked into my life, you left and you came back again.
thank you(:
maybe i should leave so i won't have to think nomore.
all i want is to be happy.

TAN SZEFONG.

2006-01-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

HELLO. THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO TAN SZEFONG CAUSE SOMEBODY COMPLAIN I NEVER BLOG ABOUT HER.

I LOVE TAN SZEFONG! xD hohohoho.

yay! praise god.

2006-01-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

xiongwei, kangjie, leongcheng and justin joined me for service today! i was quite surprised they would come along. YAY PRAISE GOD!
went for lunch with the cell group at tampines and then went home.
I LOVE N293 AND N330!
hoho. i slept all the way till now. (: very long never sleep until so shuang alr.

congrats to anna on becoming an executive member!

pastor talked about the power of revelation, power of visualization and power of confession. about what the holy spirit reveals to you in your life. setting your goals and visualising yourself there. and how powerful the words you say are.
what have you been saying to yourself and to others?
your words set the boundary to a limit to your world and how far you can go.
people who use four letter words and foul language just have a limited vocabulary. when your vocabulary expand, your vision/future also expand.

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joyce meyer's sermon(:
YOUR SELF IMAGE AND HOW IT AFFECTS YOUR FUTURE.
2 corintians 5:17 says that we're a new creation and have a new life when we become christians. we become a different person.

God is a God of Hearts and he sees our heart. God wants to rule and reign in our spirit.
*what we should do is not always what we want to do.
If you want blessings in your life you must learn to go deeper and make commitments. [ living on the other side of your feelings ]

don't be ruled by your feelings.
*you'll have to choose to do what is right while you still feel like you don't want to do it.
-Making the right decision while you feel wrong.

We don't know anything if we're not doing it. Don't bow down to your feelings, bow down to God.
If we listen to God and stop living by how you feel, you will receive more than enough and abundantly.

Start living boldly.
be all that you can be. don't look at what's wrong with you but look at what's right with Jesus.

don't listen to your head, listen to your heart. Pray for God to do great things in your life. It's who you are in Christ that matters. KNOW WHO YOU ARE IN CHRIST.
quit comparing yourself with everyone else.
it's okay to start it that way but don't stay that way. the word of God must confront our behaviour if we want to grow.

have a healthy attitude.
dealing with jealousy - God has a plan for you and your time will come. Be contented.
Work on your strengths, not your weaknesses.
*Get better at what you are better at.
don't worry about somebody else, you follow God.

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hoho i suddenly feel like blogging about it.
gotta do schoolwork.
GOODNIGHTS ALL. LOVE(:

can't live a day without your presence, closer to you i wanna be
my soul cries out for more of you, my lord
my portion and hope
i close my eyes, and feel you near
there's nobody else that can take your place in my heart

thank you jesus.

2006-01-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

first N330 cell group! ((((: yay. i love them all. missing alot of people at N293.
it was quite fun. alot of laughter. shared testimony today. thanks szefong and leila!
i love all of you in N330 too!

JIAYU IS GONNA BE A COUNSELLER!!!!! hohoho. i helping her promote. anything can go find her. she will COUNSEL you. haha.

i haven been setting aside them for quiet time. it feels really good to be in God's presence during worship today. He has changed my life so much. so thankful for all you've done in me and the people around me. My dearest Lord Jesus Christ, thank you.

EILEEN CHIN YU LING! i love you! be strong. (:

went to watch an international debate at srjc ytd. nobody wanted to go with me. so i went alone. haha. luckily hamzah, glenn and angie were around. it was a really exciting debate between australia and singapore. they speak really well la. missed the finals today at acjc cuz i went for cell group. SEE LEILA I LISTEN TO YOU. haha.

i must treasure weekends cuz it's the only time i get to really rest. been so drained the entire week. debate is coming! yay i'm going for scrabble this year again. it's gonna be fun.
gonna catch some sleep and then wake up for homework/studying.
NIGHTS ALL LOVE. (:

i've waited so long to say this to you ...
if you're asking if i love you this much, i do.
i will cherish you. frm the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control.
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i can't wait.

from the depths of my soul; it's beyond my control.

2006-01-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

there's so much inside me i wanna tell you, so much i wanna let you know.
i just can't find the right words.

it's just beyond my control.
memories that stay.

thankful. MY ONLY ONE. JESUS.

2006-01-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

it's nearly 1 and i'm still awake! hoho. was packing my room and rearranging my piano and bed because i've got a new study table. (: i love my mum and dad.

haven done any study/homework today. had debate just now. i don't really enjoy it. bah. nvm. (:

tmr's friday! finally. gonna go study with the yck girls tmr and then go watch international debate at srjc. leila's coming with me. yay.

i'm thankful for all you've done, lord. everything in my family, relationships and every area of my life. thank you. (:

2006-01-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

I Do (Cherish You) - Mark Wills

All i am, all i'll be
Everything in this world, all that i ever need
Is in your eyes, shining at me
When you smile, i can feel all my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations seduce me' cause i,

I do, cherish you
For the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you ask me do i love you this much
i do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions, didn't know where i was going
'till that day, i found you
How you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart until my dying day

repeat chorus
If you're asking do i love you this much
i do, oh, i do

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i love this song!

i want to give u all i have (: JESUS.

2006-01-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY AND COACH JONATHAN!

met leila for bible study and learnt about the lord's prayer. i think it had quite an impact on me. telling me how to approach prayer with the right attitude and what we should be praying about. giving God all our worries, fears, praise, temptations and other areas of our life. i felt like God has arranged this bible study time to really teach me how to seek him, ask from him and trust him with faith.

had fun! (: leila is insane. hahaha. met angeline at kovan. bought chinese files for the class.

got kinda stressed up at school today cuz i felt like there was just so much work to be done and all the tests are coming up. i really have to work hard this year. (:
luckily i have houjun and clique to entertain me and cheer me up. not forgetting saran! =D loves.

i've drifted away from a couple of people in school. probably because i don't have enough time to hang around with them. i miss them! i'm trying to make an effort to call them up and arrange outings but sometimes i just feel like i'm the only one trying, they don't seem to care and it's getting tough. it probably doesn't mean much to them but to me they are people i really love and treasure. i hope it won't just fade away.
eileen and lileen if you are reading this. I MISS YOU GIRLS! (:

-we were talking about sincerity and his belated birthday present i owe him-

leongcheng:
nites, stars are all out , its time , to sleep , so i can rise tml , goodnight kisses ! hugs , tml morning dews , and the sun , will make me wake up like the sheep , and go to school like the snail , when i will see the dog again in our sch , im closing msn already , im so sad , but i still love u .

me: wah you very sincere leh.
leongcheng: my birthday present =D
leongcheng: you don't jiajia.

hohoho. but i'm sure it's the sincerity that counts right?
*WITH TONS OF SINCERITY* HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! *SMILE*

i have got homework not done so i gotta go complete them. tmr's gonna be a looong day.
NIGHTS ALL LOVE.
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cheryl and liwen

me and liwen

my sis and me!

siblings.

i don't know how this ended up in my phone. hohoho.
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hohoho. yay. new computer.

2006-01-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHO. YAY. NEW COMPUTER! =D

i love leila rita tan!!!! thanks so much for everything. (:

just came back frm tuition with leila. haha. met szefong and hansheng to study but we didn't study much also la. haha. talked alot with szefong. lovelove.

gotta go do up my computer stuff alr.
blog again soon.
NIGHTS ALL.

hohoho.

2006-01-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

i'm bored. been playing the computer, reading digital fortress, listening music and napping for the past few hours. I GET FIVE BUCKS AN HOUR FOR THAT. hohohoho.

so looking forward to church tmr! (: i miss praising and worshipping God.

realised i've been studying quite alot late. hoho i'm a good girl.
gonna continue with my chemistry revision. (:
NIGHTS ALL. LOVE.

2006-01-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

Is there no truth in beauty?

This is how it’s been, this is how it will be
and when you wake up with him, remember when it was me
and I always will be waiting for you
and I know that you will never see...that

I can't break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there's nothing left to say, yeaheeyeah
Do you remember when, you used to laugh there with me
and now I've become the joke, a punchline's all I will be
and I always will be waiting for you
and I know that you will never see ...that

I can't break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say

You’ll be waiting for the rest of your life
just so you can finally miss him
These words don’t mean a thing but I'll say them anyway
...anyway, yeah

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say...but

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there's nothing left to say, yeahheahh
'cause I can’t break away

colin raye. love me.

2006-01-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
i've decided to reblog because i was bored. working right now at somewhere near lavender. bascially i'm getting paid for slacking because i have nothing to do and i'm using the computer and listening to music. hohohoho. (:

went for debate trg just now. the impromtu motion was really hard.
the pen is mightier than the sword. ?!?!?!
we tried, had to talk about diplomacy and war issues. we failed pretty badly judging from mr malvin and hamzah's expressions/comments.

missed the last combined cellgrp today. gonna miss alot of people! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!

been thinking alot alot. i need God to talk to me. tell me what i should do lord.
i can't wait for february 14th. (:
maybe it's gonna be the last; but i don't care.
i miss you.
MEMORIES ARE ALL THAT I'VE GOT.

i miss your presence lord.

2006-01-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

it's raining again. i miss God. (:
school was alright today except i was late for school. but mr wee's sucha nice om. hohoho. he never scolds me.
i love math lessons and mrs tang! hahaha. saran never fails to entertain me.
i love 3e2! =D

was talking to the atheletics gang. i miss herman! and the 1e2 clique. i miss going out with eileen and lileen! i miss so many people. and rayl too! i wished i had more time.

debate trainings are starting tmr. that means i'll have lesser time, more work. class tests will be coming up soon too. i must start revising and studying hard already.

gonna go bathe, complete my homework and research for debate stuff. (:
NIGHTS ALL LOVE.

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MAKING A DIFFERENCE

CITY HARVEST CHURCH Key: G

Worship

WON'T YOU LORD
TAKE A LOOK AT OUR HANDS
EVERYTHING WE HAVE
USE IT FOR YOUR PLAN
WON'T YOU LORD
TAKE A LOOK AT OUR HEARTS
MOULD IT, REFINE IT, AS YOU SET US APART

WE WANT TO RUN TO THE ALTAR
AND CATCH THE FIRE, TO STAND IN THE GAP
BETWEEN THE LIVING AND THE DEAD
GIVE US A HEART OF COMPASSION
FOR A WORLD WITHOUT VISION
WE WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE
BRINGING HOPE...
TO OUR LAND

WE WILL ANSWER THE CALL
TO BUILD THIS CHURCH WITHOUT WALLS
LET YOUR GLORY BE SHOWN
BRING SALVATION TO THE LOST, TO THE LOST...

outro:

WE WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE
WE WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE
WE WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE
BRINGING HOPE...
TO OUR LAND
TO OUR LAND
TO OUR LAND
TO OUR LAND

walk with me.

2006-01-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

i wanna declare that I LOVE CHERYL CHAN JIAHUI !!! before she says i zhong nan qing nu again. hahahaha.
just talked to her on the phone. so fun! (: thanks girl for everything.

xiongwei is so nice. he says goodnight to me EVERY NIGHT. i appreciate it! (:

i don't feel like sleeping yet. still very awake. i'm thinking of stuff but happy stuff. hahaha.

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maybe i didn't make the right decision, maybe it just wouldn't turn out right in the end.
but it's all too late to turn back.
i'm not sure whether i used the right word but i'm so in love with you.
words can't explain how much you mean to me.
I MISS YOU.

2006-01-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move  ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else

I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

DARIUS(:

2006-01-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

i wasted my entire day slacking at home. hohoho.
it's been pouring nonstop lately.

spent last night thinking alot about life and the people around me. i realise i've been losing people so dear to me. so many i don't even know who to turn to when i've problems and when everything else goes wrong.
but i trust that God will always be there for me, no matter what.
THANKS LEILA RITA TAN for being there! ((((((((:
lovesloves.

joyce meyer said something very meaningful during altar call that day.
accepting christ doesn't mean you will not encounter any more problems in your life anymore. but it means you will never have to go through these problems yourself, because God will be there with you.
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i've fallen so deep in love with you i don't know how to turn back anymore.
LOVE.
stay there. (:

pms.

2006-01-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

i'm having cramps and moodswings. rahhhhhhhhhhhh.

sometimes i just feel like noone's around.

lalala.

2006-01-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

don worry my blog wasn't hacked. i copied and pasted that myself. LOL. hahaha.
tosh is retarded, to the extreme.

CHERYL CHAN JIAHUI IS TOTALLY INSANE !!!

2006-01-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

tosh@inertia says:
gimme ur blog addy
tosh@inertia says:
i can feel the sexiness oozing outta ur newest blog entry liao
tosh@inertia says:
cos im in it
tosh@inertia says:
~_~...

hahahahahahha.

2006-01-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

tosh@inertia says:
i wear briefs
tosh@inertia says:
with my pants up to my nipples
tosh@inertia says:
oh yea.
tosh@inertia says:
u know the zip
tosh@inertia says:
it tore off my chest hair
tosh@inertia says:
cos its so high
tosh@inertia says:
it hurt so bad
tosh@inertia says:
owwww.

sucha painful thing to waste. JOYCE MEYER!

2006-01-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

met fiona for bible study at j8 today with my bro. haha. alot of them were there! (: jiayu, sherlynn, liyun, leila, evan, elana and junle.

met cheryl, jicai, ivan and derrick for pool at ssc.

went for service after that with leila and her friends. JOYCE MEYER is a great preacher! i really really enjoyed the service. it was very meaning. about loving yourself, your life, others and also God. trying to get friends for the services. i'll be going all three of them! (:

went for dinner at TM. met da mark and a few others. then went to play pool AGAIN. i'm addicted! spent so much on pool lately. haha.
went home with LEILA RITA TAN. she call me cheekohpeh look at her skirt. HELLO?! YOU WEAR SO SHORT CAN. hahaha. i love her!!! so fun.
met weian to pass him corina's present after that. hahaha.

have to wake up really early tmr morning. NIGHTS ALL LOVE. (:
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Sitting here alone
Thinking it through
Trying to convince myself
That I'm not losing you

It was so strong
Where did it all go wrong

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?

it's been so really long and i'm still hanging on, holding on. why.
lord help me. take me to be with you.

tiring. work hard!

2006-01-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

i feel VERY FAT! i ate alot today. haha. this is the first week of school and i'm feeling the stress already. i really have to work hard this year. (: i'll been blogging lesser!

i'm going to start tuition soon with LEILA! yay. hahaha.
i still have homework not done but i'm still feeling sleepy. i think i'll wake up tmr to complete it.
NIGHTS ALL. LOVE.

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I'M HAPPY. LALALALA.
nobody can ever make me feel this way.

lalala i love 3e2.

2006-01-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

lessons were okay today. i love mrs tang and mdm seah! (: they are such good teachers.

i got unwillingly volunteered to be the chinese and mrl rep. thanks huh 3e2. houjun and yingtong are the cleanliness leaders. THE NAME SOUNDS VERY FUNNY! hahaha. it was very fun playing around with the girls in class! love them all!

i lovelovelove amaths and emaths lessons now! firstly, mrs tang is teaching and secondly i'm sitting next to SARAN! he's so fun and claims he's so sexy. hahahaha. i love him!

I LOVE 3E2! (:

went to meet jiayu with rachel after school. that girl is sick again! hope she get well soon. (: both of them are very crazy. hahaha.
lovesloves.
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these few days haven been exactly good for me. so much emotions and thoughts and getting me down. i hate feeling like this. father, guide me, take me away in your presence.
i wanna stay in your presence forever. nobody could make me feel more loved.
thank you jesus.

busted.

2006-01-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BUSTED!

Losing You - Busted
Yeah, Yeah, yeah

Sitting here alone
Thinking it through
Trying to convince myself
That I'm not losing you
Why can't you just forget the things I said
I was angry at that time
But now I've cleared my head

It was so strong
Where did it all go wrong

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, wont stand
Losing you

You don't have to say a word
It's in your eyes
What can I do to convince you
We need more time
And i know I may have made a few mistakes
But losing you is just to much for me to take

It was so strong
Where did it all go wrong

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, wont stand
Losing you

So tell me what to say
Because I need
A chance to change
And I wont let you walk away

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, won’t stand
Losing you
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it's been tough. really tough. keeping tears behind those laughters.
guide me lord; take me away.

caught in the middle.

2006-01-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

just woke up from a looong nap. (: still feeling a little sleepy.
oh ya forgot to thank LILEEN! for the very pretty necklace! loves. (:

MEET YOU THERE - BUSTED
I'm waiting
For the perfect time to call you back
Cos' I remember saying
Don't wanna know the truth
Can't handle that

And I try to just forget you
But I don't know how
If only I knew

It's written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there

I'm sorry
If I slagged you down
I meant no harm
When I heard the stories
Said things I didn't mean
Should have stayed calm
But sadly
You got angry
And it breaks my heart
You're so mad at me

Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there

Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I should meet you there

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i shouldn't be feeling this way.
it's time to let go and make a choice.

lalala .first day of school.

2006-01-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIASHENG! (:
i still remember the times we used to talk nonsense over the phone every night. you've been sucha great friend and thanks for everything! loves.

it just dawned on me i entirely forgot about dear saran's birthday. aaaaaww. three years of BESTBESTBEST friends and i forgot your birthday. i'm sooo sorry! haha. you've been great lah. really. thanks for all the fun, laughter and all the help in school work. you never fail to put a smile on my face! (:

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! it was pretty fun. catching up with the people whom i haven seen the entire holidays! i miss them sososo much. esp the 3e2'ians! love them all! (:

new teachers too! mrs tang is teaching us emaths and amaths. double YAY! mrs gibson is finally back too! we have really good teachers this year. (: i'll work hard!

went to compass with xiaowei, eileen, lileen, mabel, janice, kangjie, shihui. met derrick, jicai and ivan after that. (: i came home early. i'm really tired now! lack of sleep. hahaha.

GONNA SLEEP ALREADY. GOODNIGHTS! (: loves.
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i wanna say a bigbigbig thank you to SZEFONG/SEKHONG. i was really breaking down that day due to some personal matters. i just felt soso bad and i couldn't stop tearing. thank you so much for being around for me girl. thank you for all the advices and for telling me so much stuff. it really helped. thanks so much. (: loves.
and also hansheng. thank you! for everything. (:
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i'm contented. please don't go away again.

new year resolutions.

2006-01-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (: went to bugis with siti just now and managed to get some homework done.
school starts tmr! i'm missing all the peeps at school already.

i haven't mentioned anything on my 2006 resolutions have i?
1) LOSE WEIGHT! i wanna look niceR and prettieR on prom night. (:
2) STUDY HARD and DO WELL FOR O'LVLS! it's an impt year and i'm NOT gonna screw it up.
3) SPIRITUAL GROWTH. i want to be a stronger child in christ!

it's time to set priorities and do what i really should do.

i still have homework not done. heh. but i'll complete them and sleep by 12am! (:
NIGHTS ALL LOVE. have fun at school tmr!

the fantastic year. 2005.

2006-01-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

it's already 2006! the past year has been a really really great and happy year for me. probably my happiest in all my fifteen years. (:
i've met sososo many wonderful and amazing people who really changed my life in a way or another.

the best thing i have came across this year is defintely JESUS CHRIST, GOD. i know it's all God's plan jiayu brought me back to chc and how pastor YK's sermon really touched me. Your presence was so strong then, telling me not to miss other opportunity to get to know you more again. and i renewed my life, back to you again. you've changed me so much. you've mould and refined me into a stronger person then ever before. thank you for all you've done.

of course N293. people like leila, jiayu, wenhui, szefong and so many of them. people i'll treasure, always.

wonderful friends in school. eleven plus, jicai, derrick, siti, herman, jiasheng, kangjie, cheryl, houjun, michelle and so many others.
esp my dearest eileen and lileen. we've been through so much together. thank you girls for always been around whenever i need somebody to talk to. thank you for so much fun and laughter we've had together. thank you for everything. (:

there's just so much people i have to thank. and so much thoughts which just can't be put in words. THANK YOU (:

it's a new year. i'm gonna start it happy and end it HAPPIER! (:
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service was very fun today! it was a really good msg. tell us to put all our sins and wrongdoings behind and to move on. jicai kept disturbing me. haha but it was very funny. (:

went to play pool with derrick, cheryl, jicai and ivan! haha. quite fun. met leila, guifeng and angeline at compass and had dinner. love them all! (:

HELLO SZEFONG! *waves* hahahaha.

oh ya! stupid bangalas! they sorta touched the atheletics girls lah. then derrick they were complaining. be careful when you go to town next time during this countdowns/christmas. (:
at least we have brave guys like jicai, derrick and HERMAN! =D
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tell me you never gonna leave again.

yay. 2006!

2006-01-01T03:41:00.000+08:00

just got home. the others are still there. hahaha. i promised my mum to be home by 3am. (: they didn't want me to walk home so i took at cab. i had alot alot alot of fun!
thanks kangjie, eileen, lileen, xiongwei and eileen's sis! =D lovesloves.

prayer meeting today was really good! God's presence really touched me and i could feel he was speaking to me through leila. He was telling me that he will be there for me no matter what and telling me he knows what i'm going through which others don't know. Telling me not to give up reaching out to the lost even though there have been failures. I was tearing for the entire prayer meeting. The first time i was so covered and filled with God's love, grace and power. thank you jesus.
Leila also prayed for every single one of us to be leaders, evangelists and for our visions. yay. she's such a great cell grp leader! (:

some pictures we took during thanksgiving cell. THANKS SZEFONG! (:

MY DEAREST DEAREST N293!

rachel, angeline, szefong, guifeng, sherlynn, wenhui and jiayu!

wenhui, sherlynn, jiayu, evan, cheryl, szefong, liwen, katherine and yours truly. =D

wenhui, sherlynn, jiayu, jiahao and me!

melsha, szefong, weihui, sherylnn, jiayu and our dearest cellgrp leader LEILA!

the same group of them!

see the three of them until sian already! with jeff! hahah.

guifeng and weihui!

leila and sekhong!

eeyer xD hahhaa.

me and sekhong!

wenhui and sherlynn!

szefong and sherlynn!

HANAH VERY PRETTY LA. hahaha.

jo pay with sherlynn.

szefong and liyun!

jolene and szefong!

wenhui and sherlynn with brother kelvin!

finally it's done! hahaha. i really gonna miss N293! love u guys so much! =D
glenn likes to praise me. he can open a "glenn's pai ma pi agency" already.

nights all. loves. (:

hohoho. happy new year!

2006-01-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:
i'm at eileen's place now. haha. with xiongwei, kangjie, lileen, eileen and her sis! (:
playing card games and other stuff. hahaha. so fun!

XIONGWEI TRIED TO RAPE ME. hahahaha.

prayer mtg was really good today. God's presence really touched me. we went to sarah lee's place. the yckians shirleen, wenhui, jiayu, yokekuan, melsha, szefong and anna. and also leila rita tan. hahaha. i'll blog more about it tmr! (:

having fun now! love them all! nights all. love!

I LOVE N293!

2005-12-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeheeee. i had so much fun today! (:

I LOVE N293 AND LEILA RITA TAN! SHE'S THE BEST CELLGROUP LEADER EVER!

today was the last cellgroup mtg of the year and also the thanksgiving cell. combined with the N109'ers. so many people were around! ivan, derrick and jicai joined us! the games was really fun and VERY funny lah. hahaha. then the thanksgiving part was great! our entire cellgroup really screamed super loud. (:
the N293 power!
alot of our members won prizes including me!
JIAYU was the best newcomer and best cell group member!
ANNA won the salt and light award!
LIYUN got the obed-edom award!
and i got the most evangelistic award! didn't really expect it and was really happy. (:
thanks so much N293 for all the cheering. i'm so proud of N293.

went for pool after that. we played for like 3 hours plus! hahaha. was playing with jicai most of the time. quite fun! hanged around at BK and then home.

THANKS SEKHONG FOR THE CUTE WALLET AND NOTE! loves. (:

just got to know today we gonna be ~~spilted~~ multiplying into two different groups. N293 AND N330. i really love N293. i gonna miss sososo many of them. liyun, liwen, guifeng, angeline, hansheng, joshua, jolene, junle and all the PL girls!
it's kinda sad but also good news that our cell is getting bigger. let's pray God will bring us to greater heights and our cellgroups will continue to multiply! (:

just in a few days time, it's gonna be a NEW year. time really flies. N293 is defintely one of the best things/people i have came across this year. thank you jesus for every every thing. It has been a really fantastic year.
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GUIFENG AND ME!

ANGELINE AND ME!

THE EXTREMELY CUTE LIWEN AND ME! I GONNA MISS THEM TRUCKLOADS!

SHERLYNN AND ME!

AGAIN. (:

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more than enough.
I WANNA STAY IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER.

sigh.

2005-12-30T04:07:00.000+08:00

OKAY. after trying to studying for around an hour or so, i have decided to not go for the reexamination tmr. i REALLY think i can't cope next year since i'm struggling now. i have got so much i don't understand! furthermore, i started studying very late [ yes, because i kept procrasinating and having fun ] so given the time i have, i have a 99.65895% of failing the reexam tmr.
~~i could have started much earlier.~~ forget about it because i didn't.

i know you're thinking that all these are just EXCUSES for me to NOT STUDY. bah. nvm.

just talked to cheryl on the phone. thanks girl. (: loves.

that particular person*
i'm so sorry i know i'll disappoint you but i really tried. thanks for everything! <3>

(:

2005-12-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

JIASHENG TOLD ME HE WILL STUDY TMR MORNING. HE IS SUCH A GENIUS. I THINK HE WILL GET FULL MARKS FOR TMR'S CHEMISTRY EXAM. hahahaha.

that monstrous JIAYU just called. hahahaha. hello?! it's 12.48 now. she's mad. hahaha.

i was on the verge for deciding NOT to go for the chemistry test tmr but sinteck made me change my mind. hahaha. i'll try my best and stay up to STUDY.
nights all love. (:

tiring day. adidas bag.

2005-12-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling tired! and the thing is, i HAVE NOT started on my chemistry revision for test TOMORROW. bah.

went out with lileen and eileen today! went for lunch than shopped around town. met derrick, jicai and ivan for pool. then walked around and then for dinner. haha. it was quite fun! (: bought a red adidas bag with eileen because they ran out of white ones. i'm broke!

having thanksgiving cell tmr! (:
i'm feeling super lazy to blog.
NIGHTS ALL. LOVE. (:
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neoprints!

rayl and eileen!

the three of us! =D loves.

hillsongs - now that you're near.

2005-12-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

Hillsongs - Now That You're Near

I stand before You, Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You

And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different, Lord
And I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
And I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You

And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God is where I wanna stay

lalalala.

2005-12-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (: physics reexam was finally over today! i've no idea whether i would pass it or not. i'm prepared for the worse. hahaha.

went with michelle to compass to have lunch and we talked alot! than met that crazy woman named cheryl and we walked around kovan. bought a cross and some other stuff i forgot what. hahaha. it was quite fun. oh ya met xuelin! LOVES(:

going with eileen and lileen tmr! yay. i miss them. (:

i still have a chemistry paper on friday. bah.

webcaming with tosh now and he's in KOREA! hahaha. so funny. he keeps telling me he's sexy. hahaha.

NIGHTS ALL LOVE. (:

somehow, somewhere.
thank you JC.

relient k. let it all out. (: jesus.

2005-12-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

Relient k - Let it all out

Let it all out
Get it all out
Rip it out
Remove it
Don't be alarmed
When the wound begins to bleed

Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about
So scared we're going to lose it
Not knowing all along
That's exactly what we need

And today I will trust you with confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me
Crying out for consistency

And you said I know that this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart
Then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember the end will justify
The pain it took to get us there

And I'll let it be known
At time I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me
There is strength

And you promise me
That you believe
In time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me
There is strength


And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
And I'll try my best to just forget
That that man isn't me (2x)

Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for you
For you

And I know you know
You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart
And made it light

i'm a happy girl.

2005-12-27T04:39:00.000+08:00

hello! yes it's 4.40am and i'm still WIDE awake because i drank coffee. (: it's been really long since i stayed up till so late doing and own stuff. and also studying.

i did abit of studying and i'm at chapter 9 now. have a looooooong way more to go but at least i managed to complete three chapters. i'm a genius because i was also ~~sufting~~surfing the net, reading my storybook, listening to music for the past few hours. (:
hahahaha.

talked to hs on the phone just now! (: and now i'm smsing henry and darius. i think their body clock screwed up. hahaha.

i'm a happy girl (:

Could be your eyes
Could be your smile
Could be the way you freed my mind
Your precious touch caressed my soul
You gave me everything i need

jesus. thank you.

2005-12-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

stayed home for practically the entire day. spent it sleeping, playing the guitar and reading my storybook. deception point is sooo nice! if only i could write as convincing as dan brown.

met eileen and rayl for awhile then went home. (:

my retest is on wednesday. and i've only completed 6 chapters of physics.
i'm staying up to study! i MUST complete all the chapters today.
if you are free and have nothing to do then you can pei me study. hahaha.

can't believe 2005 is coming to an end so soon. i've met so many amazing and a couple of special people who really lit up my life. and also God. the one and only i can't thank enough for everything He has given me. (:
a wonderful family, wonderful friends and everything i could ask for.
it's been a great year and i'm hope 2006 is gonna be a better one.
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i'm feeling happy! (:
that little bit of sweetness just lights up my heart.
thank you hs.
this is just more than enough.

let it all out - relient k.

2005-12-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

i miss God. just had my quiet time. felt alot better. thank you jesus. (:

and to THAT particular person. thanks for the present and the note.
i thought the note was really sweet. i melted. hahaha. THANKS so much.
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I LOVE RELIENT K!!!

some pictures with my cousins and my sis!

she knows how to play okay! hahaha.

my pretty sister! (:

soooo cute!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHO. MERRY CHRISTMAS! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BINGDA!

just came home from my cousin's 21st birthday and christmas celebration. didn't really get to catch up with alot of my cousin because we went back quite early. mum didn't want us to stay out late. (:

christmas service was great today! wheeeehee. so glad my friends came. it was tough trying to reach out to every single one of them but thank God for being there to keep me going! sikai, sinteck, derrick, jicai, cheryl and rachel responded to altar call today! YAY. northvista revival!
thanks to eileen, lileen, jiahao, ruibin, gary, jicai, derrick, henry, sikai, jiasheng, sinteck, yengjie, rachel, kenneth, rayl, siti, faiz, rongli and alex for coming today! (:

went for the christmas carnival after that. sooooo fun! hahaha. played two rides only but it was fun lah. everybody got kinda giddy after the second one so we went for lunch. love them all! (:

thanks HANSHENG, ELANA, LIYUN, GENEVIEVE, HENRY AND SITI
for the presents/chocolates and cards! (:

i love N293!
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i need you jesus. badly. come guide me through.

wwwhee. christmas! jesus is the reason for the season.

2005-12-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! (:
yay. i'm in the christmas mood because it's christmas! hahahah. lalalalala. i love christmas.
my handphone is still beeping and msn chats been popping up wish me merry christmas.
thanks all lovesloves.

just got home not long ago from town. i made sure i bathed myself twice to wash off all the dirt and smell. hahaha.

anyways, wheeeeeeeeeehee. sosososo fun! went to meet eileen first then meet the group of guys. alex, rayl, rongli, kangjie, xiongwei, leongcheng, eugene, bingchao and rayson. it was super crowded and everybody was spraying the snow spray. sooo we went to buy the sprays too! everybody went crazy lah. hahaha. super fun. i was totally white, wet and sticky. eileen was worse! hahah. derrick and jicai came after that and of course they got it too. hahaha. went back with eileen, derrick and jicai after that. (:

met alotalot of people! jasmine, the n-girls, desmond, wenhui, jiayu, szefong, rachel, kenneth and many more! (: I HAD FUN! =D loves all.

went for christmas service in the afternoon today with crispin, jiayu, terry, yimeng, shengfeng and leila. the drama was really gooood! (: enjoyed it.

thanks SARAH LEE for the bracelet with my name on it!
thanks CRISPIN for the necklace!
thanks LEILA for the card!
thanks EILEEN for the chocolates and earrings!
and everyone for their christmas wishes!

LOVE ALL OF YA! (((((:
nights. =D

and i know how to play qingtian already! thanks crispin and aivern!

christmas mood.

2005-12-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

been busy writing christmas cards/notes since evening and now my hands need a break.

went with my sis for the kids childrens' service at jurong. SOOOOOOOO MANY KIDS! hahaha. i think my sis enjoyed it. it was really packed. met jiayu, evan, sandy, sherlynn, fiona, wenhui, hansheng, liyun and jolene who were helping out there.
oh ya thanks hansheng for helping my bro! (:

came home and i saw a christmas card from the mail for me. and the surprise was, it was from aivern! i can't believe that uncle ~~who always bully me ( he said my english sucks ) and call me si ginna~~ actually sent me a christmas card and wrote sooooo long somemore.

zining: Yes i finally get to your card. Well, what a difference a year makes, eh? Let's see, in this year alone, you've changed your name, started going to cityharvest (yuck), and kena scolded by ah kuahs! Happening or what siah? Anyway, what ever happens, don't ever lose your zest for life, alright? That's what makes you so unique and attractive. not your so called cuteness. Haha. All the best in your studies and love life. Takecare.

i didn't type out alot of useless and stuff-you-shouldn't-know. haha.
so touched lah. hahaha. THANKS AIVERN! it made my day.
and i have no idea why he doesn't like cityharvest. he refuses to come for service on sunday. like that jason ng.

meeting crispin for guitar tmr at his place. he MADE me go there or else he wouldn't go for service. haha. jiayu's coming along. meeting haidi, yimeng and shengfeng for tmr's 4.30pm service i think. hope will be fun! (:

i'm gonna study late today. i hope i don't procrasinate AGAIN.
nights all. love. (:
i shall continue with my christmas cards writing.

misunderstood- bonjovi.

2005-12-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

(: went with eileen, rayson, lileen, kangjie and xiongwei to shop around for christmas pressies but i only bought a ear stud and dan brown's deception point(for myself). hahaha. i wanna read all of dan brown's books. it's all super nice lah. haha.

we watched KINGKONG. hahaha. finally. it was quite touching. just kinda boring during the first part. of course lileen and me cried, so did somebody named kangjie. (: hahaha. uh-oh.

met corina! that girl is sooooo cute lah. lovesloves. that rayson being the usual cheekohpeh again and wanted her number. hahaha. met lengyao on the bus too! talked alot. he's a nice person! (:

i NEED to start studying already. really. nights all. love. (:

thank you. lala. i wished i was a stronger girl.

2005-12-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i was a much stronger girl then i am.
thank you jesus. i can't imagine if i were to live without you. (:

everybody in N293 is doing this so i've decided to do this too!

In no particular order, list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.

1) herman
2) siti
3) eileen
4) lileen
5) henry
6) tosh
7) jason
8) hansheng
9) mr malvin
10) mr lee
11) mrs tang
12) phyliscia
13) leila
14) rayl
15) jiayu

So what do you think of number 4?
my bestie! what ask can i say? hohoho. she's mad.

How would you feel if number 15 slapped you?
SHE WON'T! hahaha. =D

How nice is number 6?
yangmehmeh! hahaha. quite nice to me. i don't know about others. (:

On a scale of one to ten, rate how good looking number 5 is.
eeeeeeyer. hahahaha. ONE. xD kidding lah. i have no idea.

Would you ever fall for number 11?
mrs tang? ><

If number 8 got into a car accident, what would you do?
i'll cry! haha.

What sport would you play with number 12?
hahaha. pool?

What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
he already has a girlfriend. haha.

Do you hate number 9?
NO! i love him! haha. he loves me too.

How much do you like number 2?
EXTREMELY. hahah. siti hamidah, see! i'm the nicest friend ever. haha.

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
leila and jason?! hahaha. MAYBE.

Will 14 one day kill you?
yeah. he's kinda insane. haha.

Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
EILEEN OF COURSE! <3<3

Now get FIVE people to do this thing
eileen
lileen
weian
kaisen
kangjie
=D

this is stupid! hahaha. =D

father i need you.

2005-12-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

eileen. i know you're feeling terrible. just want to let you know i'll be around ALWAYS okay. i care so don't worry. you can call me anytime. loves.

i just can't hold it back.
the disappointments yet and again.
just when i was so looking forward to this sunday.
father, please don't let this bring me down.
i'll have faith in you and keep going.

thank you lord. i miss you.

2005-12-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

PLEASE GO AND READ THIS!!! written by corina's friend! IT'S SUPER TOUCHING. I CRIED! if only i had a boyfriend like noah. (:
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didn't study ytd because siti woke up really late. hahah. suppose to study today but i think she woke up late again! she's sucha pig! xD haha.

went to meet eileen and shihui at ps ytd. we shopped around and played the arcade. bought a jacket, nougats and a christmas present. hahaha. i had fun! LOVE YA BOTH. ((:
after that eileen and me had to go to marina bay to CLEAR RUBBISH. it was super dirty lah. and both of us were whining and whining about it to kangjie. hahaha. WE ARE PRINCESSES OKAY. hahaha.

jeff helped me tuned the guitar and even brought it to farrer park to give me. THANKSTHANKS! (:

talked to hansheng ytd on the phone for quite long. haha. it was nice lahh. things have changed but i guess we both prefer it much better now. (: yay yay. =D

went with my dad to change my name in the passport and then collect my IC from school.
gonna go study soon i think. (:
LOVES.
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i don't care what people will say; i'm running after YOU.

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